I'm BAAAAAAAAAACK
Well, after a long hiatus from the LJ scene, I’m back with an update… apologies to those following the saga this far for only ONE post in December...
Another broken heart: Another man whom I loved dearly abused that love and forced me to end the relationship… I was there only at his convenience, and just can’t do that. Good-by Tony, my love… I will miss you terribly.
Another man enters, but caution flags arise: New Year’s was a blast!! However, too much alcohol caused my date to become a little too flirty and me to become a little too emotional. All ended well, but the warning lights are still flashing… and I really like the guy!! Only time will tell, I guess…
My Christmas: Plans were changed at last minute, so I had to find some accommodations. Adam
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pigboy74 and Brian
brianmn were my most gracious hosts. Adam picked me up at the airport (had to take a red-eye from Las Vegas to MSP) and dropped me off, cause he had to work. …little did I know what awaited me…LOL Adam warned me that Brian was “a little flirty”…. THAT was an understatement!! Don’t think I have ever been propositioned more times in my life!! (kidding) However, he was a perfect gentleman…the BOTH were.
Stayed that day and night with them and then was off to my niece’s 1st birthday party…She got sick and had to leave for the emergency room that afternoon… double ear infection. Had everyone worried.
Then, I was to stay with my sis one night while the rest of the family headed up north to home. Next day I got to hang with my good friend, Mike. He worked me muscles out good (no, REALLY… went to the gym and did shoulders and arms… my arms were sore for DAYS afterwards!!)
Next day, sis, bro-in-law, niece, and I all headed north as well. Christmas was nice… I got the best present: a picture of my paternal grandparents. I am the only grandson on my Dad’s side, but they both died when I was very young. Apparently, I was very special to them… I don’t remember much. So, for many years now, I had asked my father for a picture of them. They died in the mid-70’s, so not many pics existed. Well, I finally got one… and I broke. Don’t think my dad thought I was going to get as emotional as I did, cause he started to cry also. After that, the whole evening was kinda anti-climatic… I never let the pic go… it stayed in my lap that whole night.
Rest of the time was spent trying to stay sane while the rest of the family did their “family bonding” in front of the TV watching deer hunting TV or something ridiculous like that (bro’s-in-law have the rule of the TV during these family events), so I spent my time on line or up in the guest room watching the other TV. Dad and I had some time alone and had a good talk about my “lifestyle”. He’s come a long way in a little over a year, but still is hung up on the sex aspect: It’s O.K. that I’m gay, just have to be celibate. Well, that’s not going to happen… Mom joined the conversation later and probably caused more harm than good… but, was good to talk about the issue again.
Finaly, day of departure and my sister gets upset at finding out she is NOT going to take me to the airport on Monday… throws this hissy fit about not spending time with the family, wanting to spent time with my “friends” (and she even used the fingers to quote the word “friends”… LOL). I tried to tell her that she was way off course and had no right giving me ANY lecture, but just added to the argument… and think she was just looking to blow off some steam – I was just a convenient target. Let it go…
Returned to MSP where Adam and Brian met me again… went out to their Bear Bar Night… met
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supercub there and a few other locals… then went to the Eagle, and home to Adam and Brian’s. Went the next day to Hooter’s for wings, saw “The Two Towers” (AWESOME!!) and then off to a friend’s party (friend of Adam and Brian). Sunday rolled around and just kind of relaxed the morning away… went to the dog park in the afternoon (Cleo, their Jack Russell, was tearing the place up!!), then an impromptu game night with their friends. I must say, that Brian and I KICKED SOME MAJOR ASS in the second game and put them all to shame (seeing how it was onlyh my second time playing, the first being the game just before that…). Then Monday came, another lazy morning with Brian being a wonderful listener to all my current woes (thanks, Brian… you don’t know how much that really meant to me….). The Adam came home from work and we were off to the airport.
AMERICA WEST SUCKS!! I almost missed my flight out of MSP, cause the luggage ticket printer was broke.. so lines were WAY long… and I couldn’t use the skycap, cause I was “selected” to have my bags x-rayed (no, I tried… that’s how I know…). Finally got aboard, and a MIDDLE seat!! ARRRRG!! Got to Phoenix, and had to wait WELL over three ours, cause pilots weren’t there yet…IS THIS EFFICIENCY AT ITS BEST OR WHAT??! Finally, landing at LAX… and getting back home.
Already told you of my New Year’s… Henry told me later that he could fall in love with me, and that scared him… but have heard it before (Tony…) and so I told him the same… just not going to expect anything from him and still do my own thing. Have plans for IBR in Feb with my friend, Mike (mentioned above…), and even if something happens with Henry, I’m not going to change the plans… he can do what he wants, so can I…
As for you fans out there in LJ land… please, in 2003… refrain from the “Oh baby, oh baby’s…” I’ve really had enough of people ogling me from afar and they are dating someone (or worse yet, dating someone off of LJ…) or making guilt entries because I didn’t agree with what they were doing and wasn’t going to be another “notch on their bedpost” while swinging through town OR because I felt obligated to be with my hosts while out of town, so I didn’t make plans with them (and then, reading their journal entry and found out that the reason they didn’t see me at Bear Bar Night was cause they picked-up some hot hockey player… PLEASE!!) You want to see me, then make plans with ME (not half of So Cal…) and come out for a visit, or invite me to stay with you. Just tired of all the falseness and double talk… you may be honestly attracted to me, but not enough to notice me on a crowded bar night while on the hunt OR not enough to make a trip out to see me but go to another trip to the East coast AND BITW III with your boyfriend. ARRRRRG! Enough said….
Will post later on my “5 things”… but getting tired now of typing… just a few last messages:
Jess – you know I love ya, bro… computer hard drive took a dump, don’t know if anything is retrievable… need the cell number again…
Terry – You’ve been a rock for me when you probably had no more to give… you have NO idea how much I admire you… I hope that I can only be there for you… thanks you!!
Adan and Brian – You guys RULE!! Will never be able to thank you enough for all you did… truly good friends and hope to keep it that way for a long time!!
Cory – you are a great guy… someday, your prince will come… I know, it’s hard for me to believe myself, so how can I be telling you that… just cause I have to have faith that good guys DON’T finish last… they win… ALWAYS…=P
Brian – thanks for the chat and the ecard over the holidays… keep in touch, bud… and know I’m thinking of ya…
All others who I may have missed - email me and remind me... I'm getting old and my memory is failing...=P
PS - grammer/spelling sucks cause I want to get this out... and am tired... forgive me!! =P
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